No sooner had I "dotted the eye " on my final word, of the final paper for 2015, did I have a glass of wine in my hand ready to watch a movie, finally with no thoughts of: did I forget something? when is the next paper due? How many chapters are we supposed to summarize?
One year of Art Therapy school completed. After applying to the program , I held my breath to see if I had been accepted and when I found out I had I was thrilled. Two weeks in to the program I was in tears thinking what have I done? I am incapable of following through at this pace. I was ready to abandon the program. Everyone was much younger than myself, way smarter and I was feeling so out there on my own. I kept questioning , why did I think I could do this program and did I really want to do it? Was it merely the challenge to complete some thing new? Was it just to convince myself that , I can do this" ? What was driving my need to tackle , what seemed monumental. at this stage in my life?Why upset the apple cart?
Life is full of moments that are life altering. I had mine 7 years ago. All of us that have had those moments, or will have, and it brings to question. Who we are? Why are we here? And for those that have been used to an even steady course, the need to shift gears and tackle the more challenging or life exhilarating , course of traversing Mount Everest, figuratively speaking. Or maybe it is just my age, the mid life crisis. who knows. Or maybe it was just me and the time was right? Either way one year done!
Step by step, each week rolling into the next. Paper upon paper, readings and more readings, forums that never end and unable to pause other areas of your life to allow for ease of completion. Children at University, graduations, moving, moving again, new jobs, and the list goes on and on. Add on my own art therapy placements and my own new job to the mix and life went from smooth sailing to turbulent waters :a roller coaster ride that hasn't ended yet.
The holidays have been a well needed rest, if not to just pause and take a deep breath. The family is all home. Life has settled for the moment. Although settled is still pretty busy and involves some catch up for the past year, from cleaning, to organizing , to preparing for the onslaught in January. Busy as I am I no longer question why I decided to engage in so many directions, but really enjoy the fact that I am here and life is great! And nice to have so many directions to take.
Well the snow has finally arrived. A little magic in the air. Another week of rest and then back to it with renewed energy and focus!
Happy Holidays!!!!!!!!
